PAIN

I have wept for eight years,

Wishing daily,

To feel your touch,

Your tenderness,

Your Kiss.

I no longer delude myself,

A spiritual bond,

Emotions misplaced,

I’ve simply existed,

Content to die.

I carried a single thought in my mind,

Wishing I fought,

Forever harder,

To make you mine,

To choose our life.

I remember your face despite the age past,

I see you still,

Everywhere I go,

In half the people,

I walk by.

I loved you so deeply and so true,

My heart died,

When I walked away,

Held me down,

Would not let go.

I lived in my past for a long time,

Thinking of you,

Has kept me alive,

Just enough for,

Sanity maintenance.

I see the years roll by without a sign,

I will never find you,

My heart is just dead,

And still I’m true,

Faithful to you.

I miss your electric touch and lovely gaze,

I forever regret,

Turning you down,

A voyage to your bed,

Is my dream unfilled.

I have a heart in control which wont release you,

Not even the years,

Can break this spell,

I have no room inside,

While I still love you.

I wish I could turn back the clock,

Erase all things past,

My squandered days,

But I can’t change that,

I’m just pathetic.

I have been crying for eight years,

Finally a release came,

Someone rekindled that spark,

My drive is back,

My heart is back.

I now simply long to wake one early morn,

To have a face I adore,

Looking at me,

Here by my side,

To brighten my day.

I keep searching and hoping and dating,

I genuinely want to listen,

Forever map another person,

To understand her drives,

Be the man stuck on her mind.

I want to find someone to set my heart on fire,

To be a part,

Of what takes her,

High…

And low…

To love someone new,

Through and through.